It hurts less after you power through the beginning. Also with regular use you might get used to it more and more.

Can someone add the “This is who you are arguing with online” meme with the machine learning image in it? Can’t find it right now.

I don’t know how, but I am basically a powerhouse 24/7. only shift is when when I do boring stuff, then my mind shuts off and with it my body.

Don’t feel any change. Had pills, gel and now injections. 9 years HRT. May be placebo

You won’t be living there forever. And friends who accept your queerness are way better.

A 15 year old .exe that let’s you simulate a nuclear power plants fuel rod shields to try to start the reaction without going into a meltdown. Found it somewhere on the Internet after my physics teacher showed it to the class back then.

He always gave me hope. To see him defeated like that really hurts. But even in that video I did not lose hope. He found the right words to help one stay optimistic.

Wild to suggest as THE first thing for someone who experienced gender dysphoria for the first time to directly experiment with HRT. I don’t know, seems like that would be something like step 4. I get that it might help one to help with finding the truth but maybe start with something less invasive?

And no, I am not a gatekeeper. I supply trans people with HRT. People who came to terms with their transness and don’t want to wait for the bureaucracy to get it for them.

Lidl, a grocery store, even has a tool brand called parkside. It even rivals other brands in quality nowadays.

Thank you very much for your words! They helped.

Some things I want to add for clarification. I think that when the loneliness gets better by having one or two more friends and/or a significant other, that other problems might solve themselves too. I could reduce alcohol even more, spend more times on solo activities that I really enjoy. The loneliness fucks with me. Distorts my thoughts and feelings.

I may look for a running group, I just wish there could be a trans running group. I could imagine that in a gendered setting like running cis people, especially outside leftist circles, are not easy to be around, but I will try regardless. Can’t complain if I don’t try it.

About my job situation. I am a college dropout and never finished any training till this year so I just worked jobs I could get with my lousy CV. It should improve now. I may start my new job next month. Already had interviews there and we clicked, the work seems very nice.

It really sucks and the worst part is that it can hit you in the worst ways. Transphobes have a wide range with their nonsense. You get comfortable with debunking one and they hit you with another. It sucks. Seek out good people wherever you can :)

Yeah well it’s called ‘heat’

Lol my ex made that YouTube video. Hilarious to see it here

Maybe this will get me to start programming seriously.

Christopher Street Day. Thats what the pride events ins German speaking countries are called.

trans meet ups are a way to meet cute people. When I lived in a rural area I would drive about an hour once a month to meet some at a meet up.

Now I live in a bigger city and there is a meetup about once a week.

Nooo, don’t call me out like that!

Unkraut in German. Doesn’t deserve to be called a Kraut.

• Weimar Republic
• Good Night White Pride(on German Wikipedia)
• First Opium War
• Finland–Russia relations
• Cambrian