Sex

This is so specific but I love permissive licenses for software and other things.

Someone giving a crap about me and taking care of me. I take care of everyone and everything in my family and work. I had a short stay in the hospital for a surgery. Ironically, even with recovering from surgery, it remains one of my happiest memories because everyone took care of me.

I never thought I’d say this, but going to work actually makes me happy. I work with autistic and disabled children, and man, they give me life. Helping them learn and grow, seeing them pick up and apply new skills, hearing their unique observations, and witnessing their creativity all bring joy to my day.

I’m currently waiting for my first learner of the day to arrive, and I know that when he gets here he’ll be making the most joyful squeals as he plays with his favorite ball. His smile is like caffeine mixed with sunshine, energizing me every morning even on the hardest days.

Don’t get me wrong, this job has its challenges, but the fulfillment I get from working with this population is immeasurable. It took many years of crappy jobs with crappy management before I got here, and I’m glad to say I think I finally found the job where I belong.

Substance abuse and PC gaming

If what I’ve been lead to believe is true then that’d be chemicals :P

Someone else’s genitals on my face.

Not waking up before 730am.

Having a few beers and cooking on a Saturday afternoon.

Mostly spending time with my boyfriend. My life currently revolves mostly around the weekends because that is the time we can meet more often.

I genuinely don’t know. I only know what makes me momentarily forget about the lack of happines but I don’t think that’s the same thing.

You can tie happiness to the things you like, but I feel this kind of happiness has become very fleeting for me. I feel happy one moment and then feel the sadness coming back. I think this has to do with the fact that, in my head, I feel I’m behind in my life and been stuck without any breakthroughs that I find my peers are getting.

Yeah, I like watching sports and anime. Used to like playing video games but not anymore.

Peace and harmony.

Not in the hippie way, but just calm and mostly quiet, no chaos.

Yeah the world isn’t for me.

I’d say probably dopamine, serotonin, endorphins, and oxytocin.

Bird photography. I’m a person who tends toward depression. It was honestly very surprising the first time I noticed that when I’m photographing birds I have a huge smile on my face the whole time.

I’ve been learning the ins and outs of my camera gear for the last year and making small improvements is really satisfying. But really it’s just being out in nature, looking at adorable birds and capturing those moments for later.