I’m sorry you’re going through this, Smorty. It won’t be forever. Please keep sharing. 💙

Smorty no… 😥

The affirming experience of being harassed as a woman!

Okay, if you’re progressing towards the goals you feel are most important right now then I’m happy for you. The impression I got was that you still don’t feel comfortable enough articulating the true severity of your issues to make any real progress, but perhaps I’m missing the whole story. I’m sorry if I overstepped.

Monthly blood checkups is insane! My prescriber only wants quarterly, but I guess the frequency isn’t the point for you. >1 is too many. Needle fear is real. I really hope you can make some progress with that soon. Perhaps your doctor could prescribe an anxiolytic to help you ease into it. Never hurts to ask!

What do you think separates your Lemmy persona from IRL? Do you feel more comfortable expressing yourself authentically here than out in the world? I find it hard to believe that the “real you” is a totally different person. I know you struggle to express your femininity out there, and probably conceal a lot of yourself. Plenty of us have been there, and we realise in retrospect that we weren’t doing nearly as good a job of masking as we thought we were. That’s kinda the whole theme of egg_irl.

If you’ve exhausted your allotment of therapy sessions for this period, and you’re still not feeling comfortable enough to speak plainly with your therapist, then I agree with TotallynotJessica that this speaks to a failing on their part, or at least indicates that this therapist isn’t a good fit for you. I’m on my sixth psychologist, and it took me until now to feel comfortable digging deep and really working through stuff in a meaningful way.

It sucks that you have to shop around like this, and go to all the time, expense and emotional burden of opening up to new psychs trying to find the right one, but it will serve you well in the end. It sounds like you’ve made enough of an effort with this one to declare that they’re not right for you, and it might be time to cut your losses.

ITT: “go to the vet”. Please give us closure now. Have you been to the vet?

Flashback to 9–year–old me sitting by the radio with a blank cassette in the drawer waiting for this song to come on so I could record it. If it’s an egg song, then this totally tracks with everything else about my childhood.

I think you’re lying. I think you were able to read it just fine on your own.

More Smorty content! Ḿ̷̥̝́̒̎̊͂͝Ǫ̴̢͍͙͖͊R̷͚̃̿͊̃̍̚Ẽ̴̘̟̯̃̅̌̏̆̆̍̎͠!

I am once again imploring you to keep doing what you’re doing, and bend to no perceived pressure to be anyone else’s idea of funny or interesting. There is only one person in the whole lemmyverse making Smorty content right now. And she’s inspiring me to think about possibly intending to maybe one day learn Krita.

Biology -> biolog -> biologist

China -> chin -> chinist?

How To With John Wilson but in LA and with less autism.

This is such a nightmare to search for online. I want to find a tailor who does maid dresses. No, not bridesmaid dresses. No, not sissy maid fetish dresses. Okay now it’s just dress tailors with pun names like Maid to Measure. I guess you just have to know the right people.

It’s me 😘 and I don’t think you were being aggressive at all. Just sensitive. I think we’re all a little edgy about being mislabelled.

It started out as the former. Every time a post made me feel warm and cosy, I noticed it was your name attached to it. Now I have you pinned to the feeds in my Lemmy client so I can specifically look at Smorty content and — not dumb — adorable comments when I want that feeling. I hope that’s not too spoopy. 💙

Please don’t change too much. I scroll your posts every time the internet starts making me sad. I like your infodumps.

I still understand your reaction, Smorty. You had a gut reaction that was unrelated to the intention of the post, and that’s okay. 💙

Getting it right is the wrong philosophy. As the saying goes, live every day like it’s Monday.

ᵂʰᵃᵗ day is it?

Might wanna keep an eye on Chilkey. Their ND75 comes in ISO, and they recently dropped a low profile version. No idea if they’re expanding that range for other layouts, but it’s pretty nice.

Edit: Their Discord server is very active if you do want to keep an ear out.