“Did this memory actually happen a long time ago or did it happen yesterday and my brain filed it wrong”
-Me more and more recentlyOh huh… I did not actually realize this was a tendency for ADHD spectrum people. Though I’m pretty sure I’ve got a lot least one or two that are 100% real, so that’s fun too
ADHD peeps from older generations typically were not diagnosed at all, so they were just classified as lazy, and some parents tried to “fix” this laziness with some pretty heavy handed methods if you know what I mean.
Lazy? You mean slow gaited like a mule. That was my dads description of me. I am left handed too which is why I could never be as good as him at many things. May he rot.
My first memories are traumatic!
Actually, a number of my childhood memories are the traumatic ones… Fuck.
Same. Those are the ones that will be with you til your dying day. I hate it when someone say forgive and forget. Forgiving is next to impossible when you can’t forget, ever.
There’s no reason to forgive either. That’s for religous dogma. If a person does bad things to you, it’s a done thing. Fuck that person. Cut toxicity out of your life. If u can. Period. Radical acceptance of the things you can’t change anymore is the way. But Forgivness? Nope.
It really hurts to see people forgiving e.g. their parents for abuse/torture. It stopped being your parent at that moment. “mother” and “father” are titles to be earned, no rights to be giving by procreation.
I agree the whole forgive and forget was invented by the guilty.
My earliest (or one of) memory is of me when. I was 6 with a steak knife pointed at my jugular crying and trying to will up the courage to do it.
Things I did not improve greatly from there. I remember very little of my childhood or really any part of my life. Bits and pieces here and there.
Guys, I don’t want to jump to conclusions, but I think I might be depressed.
I seriously advise you to get professional help. This doesn’t sounds very healthy, maybe you should get this checked with a therapist. I hope you find peace on your life. Please take care.
Dunno where you reside and the legality but psilocybin and ketamine have been showing wonderful results in depression and are becoming more available in a medical setting. I’ve done a few K sessions at a local clinic and I won’t say it’s fixed my depression but I do find it easier to look at things glass half full, highly recommend.
Note however, that psychotropics drugs are best taken under medical instruction and are most effective in the long run if you’re also in psychotherapy.
Edit: Wtf did my app just do
Yes, that’s why I said in a clinic. Having someone to monitor you is safety first.
There’s a dozen apps for Lemmy and they all have bugs, but I’m glad there’s people working g on them all
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A Mother who loves to gaslight ist not helping as well, in case you were wondering
I’m in this meme, and your addition, and I don’t like it. 😑
I don’t have that, I can remember a few things back to age 3/4. But an ex has this, starting most memories around age 10 - 12, and I’m just surprised how that doesn’t spark a thorough medical investigation. Just nobody cares.
What kind of medical investigation do you imagine?
I might have made this up as well, but I have a very distinct memory of basically suddenly becoming conscious at around being 3 years old. I woke up from a nap and for a couple hours or possibly days, I wasn’t sure whether I was dreaming or the world around me was actually real. After a couple of days of waking up in the same environment, I eventually accepted this to be reality. I of course don’t remember everything from this point on in my life, but it really felt like the first time I was able to explicitly think about stuff.
Add in several concussions from contact sports and you get the fun dlc of “did my brain just offload irrelevant stuff or is there a bruise on that part of my brain?”
There’s also “childhood amnesia” caused by the hormonal changes of puberty.
This would actually make a huge amount of sense. Your brain literally chemically rewires during puberty, so I imagine there’s also varying degrees of memory pruning based on frequency of access and interrelatedness.
Related: https://scitechdaily.com/mapping-neuroplasticity-how-pregnancy-rewires-brain-architecture





