I had a weird thing happen that kind of fucked me up. I haven’t cried or been able to cry since. Lost a close relative and I saw another explain what happened (it was particularly sad). When he was explaining he started to begin tearing up but swallowed and stone faced. He finished explaining and I haven’t been able to cry since. For clarity, I’ve never had a problem showing emotions or crying. I used to cry at inspirational stuff or sad stuff. Its been around six months now. So when’s the last time you cried? Maybe hearing some stuff will loosen me up.
The other day my neighbour’s 4yo daughter saw me come home from the yard where she plays with her cousins. She ran up to me arms open wide saying “huuuug !!” and her cousin (same age) followed her lead so a second later I had my arms full with these 2 beautiful, innocent, aww-factor little girls. As someone struggling to have children for years I felt simply… fulfilled (?) for a short second there. Then I went inside and broke down