• mrgoosmoos@lemmy.caEnglish
        5·
        25 天前

        I’ve had weeks where I didn’t leave my property for days. I don’t have a big property.

        just didn’t need to. a couple long days at work, gardening, other house projects/chores, workout at home because the weather was too crappy for a bike ride… whoops it’s Wednesday midday and I haven’t left the property since Sunday

      • Bizzle@lemmy.worldEnglish
        4·
        26 天前

        I spend a lot of time outside. Go for a walk or a hike or a bike ride just for fun, feel the sun, touch the grass. Hug a tree. Human beings are animals, and animals need to be outside. Read Ralph Waldo Emerson for some going outside theory, bonus points if you do it under a tree the way Jah intended.

        • [鳳凰院 凶真 Hououin Kyouma]|[alt: 黃家駒 Wong Ka Kui]@sh.itjust.worksOP
          2·
          26 天前

          Yea… so much energy required. Idk why but I think Covid made me have Germophobia/Mysophobic. Sometimes there are like bird poop or sometimes literal dog poop in the nearby park. And its a city park, not a national/state park so they generally don’t get cleaned and its kinda like in a sort of rough part of the city (not that rough, but sort of rough). I think there are drunk dudes pissing in the bush or something… ugh… idk… feels kinda disgusted to go in public. I remember having covid, that really fucked with me, so much coughing and throwing up. Idk if my depression was partly resulted from covid.

          I wanna go into like some woods or hills/mountains to explore, but my parents have kinda instilled this “stranger danger” thing into my subconsciousness and “there are kidnappers there, don’t go to those places”, and as for cities… yeah about that… I had I think it’s what’s called “CPTSD” from childhood of me being alone, after running away from home from my older brother who was fighting me. Yes, it was probably a bad idea to do that, but I was like 6 probably, I knew was home = danger, but my parents were at work during that incident. So I just left. I went to look for my mother so I can tell her about what my brother did, I didn’t even recognize how dangerous it was going outside. Nobody even cared about me being outside alone, this was mainland China, nobody cares. Anyways, after the incident, my parents found me, and then, she told me “yoi could’ve been kidnapped”, so yea, that only exacerbated my fears. I was a 6 year old (probably, can’t be sure), and all I understood about the world was brother = bad and outside = bad people kidnappers.

          So you wonder why I fear outside so much…

          This is why… outside, alone, tends to get my heartrate up. By alone I also include like in a crowd of strangers. I need someone I can trust to be with me.

          Its a very complex thing. When I was a kid, and at home, parents (especially my mother) and my brother was the danger, but when I was outside, I’d have to stick close to the known dangers (my parents) to protect me from the unknown dangers of the world. So I have this weird separation anxiety connection towards the very people who emotionally abused me.

          Basically, I think its the fear and loneliness that I developed on that fateful day, that has been encoded into my brain and I just fear the outside. Outside = Advsersity. Its where people want to kidnap you, its where racists are (when I first came to America and experienced racism). So really, I don’t feel safe anywhere.

          Yes I realize I probably need a psychatrist lol.

        • Ryanmiller70@lemmy.zip
          1·
          25 天前

          I did that till the temperatures dropped below 50. I can’t stand the cold even when wearing 4 or 5 layers of clothes (which is already uncomfortable).

      • Breezy@lemmy.world
        1·
        24 天前

        I have fun reading books yet i work and take care of my stuff every day. To me i go outside, to be lumped in with basement dwellers who fear sunlight kinda pisses me off.

  • Zwuzelmaus@feddit.org
    34·
    26 天前

    90% of the fediverse are acually bots, but you have severe social anxiety.

    In this case, it is very likely that you are a bot yourself.

  • Rooty@lemmy.world
    28·
    25 天前

    Can we not do the Reddit thing, where we pretend we’re all shut-ins and social outcasts for some reason? I got sick of idiots making the same tired joke of “hurdur, what is sex, we’re Redditors” in every thread, and frankly I don’t want the same sentiment here.

    • Scrubbles@poptalk.scrubbles.techEnglish
      7·
      25 天前

      Agreed. The vast majority of us I believe are actually older and a bit more well adjusted. I’m fine with leaving the weird nerd incel thing behind. I’m still a nerd, but not a weird nerd.

      I saw someone posting nice guy incel content here recently and just thought nope, fuck that, and posted instead asking how people grew out of that mindset. I want us to be known for being a bit wiser, and more helpful rather than reinforcing bad mindsets.

      • Crash@lemmy.ml
        3·
        25 天前

        Yeah I’d like to think there are a lot of us who actively don’t want that live our whole lives online which is why we are opting for less addictive social platforms to engage with

  • Tai@mander.xyz
    10·
    26 天前

    Of course I would keep using it, bots don’t understand opsec and would likely give up key information about Organization schemes. El Psy Congroo.

  • Ludrol@szmer.info
    6·
    25 天前

    You find out […] you have sever social anxiety.

    I go outside to become better regardless of fediverse.

  • quediuspayu@lemmy.dbzer0.comEnglish
    5·
    26 天前

    As someone who in the past had panic attacks for entering a pub with friends.

    I would ditch internet as a whole if necessary. I would do whatever it takes to never go back to that place. There’s no social interaction in social media, that thing feeds the monster of social anxiety.

  • Leonyx@kbin.melroy.org
    3·
    26 天前

    I am already like an entire third of my body out from social media as is. The other foot is just the three things remaining that I use for social media. Whether I find out 90% are bots or 90% or even assholes, it would be a means to complete the motion to leave entirely.

  • StinkyFingerItchyBum@lemmy.caEnglish
    3·
    26 天前

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